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all actions, situations and events are sacred. Acknowledgement of life as such in the form of affirmations of thanks, gratefullness and respect for the things, experiences and sharing we have in our life.

I’ve been thrashing wordpress for the past 6 weeks trying to get this plug in “podpress” to work with my version of wordpress (2.1.1) but to no avail. I checked all the forums on wordpres.org and mightyseek.com but noone seemed to be able to sort my problem out. The basic problem was that whenever I tried to create a podpress enabled page/post I would press “save” and then nothing would happen. I finally traced it to the wordpress theme I was using. I found the current theme after looking for something that was simple and fast…. no bulshit… just give me my site baby and fuck the graphic dodads and funky widgetmonkeys, I want speed and content.

So……

It is working now…. supposedly. I am going to add a podcast file to this post and see if I can access it in iTunes. If you want you can give the podcast feed link a try and see if it works too.

If you click on the link below the mp3 file should start playing but it will most likely be twice as fast as it is suppose to be. So this proves that I want speed!!!! …..mmmmm…. seriously, it is a bug in the flash player that doesn’t like anything that is not encoded at a sample rate of 11.025 kHz 22.050 kHz or 44.100 kHz. What crap software we have to put up with today…..

Anyway, here is the mp3 and you can copy the link to my podcast feed url and paste it into the respective audiophioc dilation systemetry that you possess at your space-time creation.

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The other days awakening to my cultural training and brainwashing has made me ponder the past in relation to my descisions and actions.

I seem to be dealing with my past descision at present. It feel quite good to go through the things that I may have been involved in and not sorted through or processed to a satisfactory level of completion. The main issues that I feel are present in my mind are in the doamins of finance. These seem the easiest to picture probably because they deal with the material world and that seems to be very present in my cosmology.

The act a paying back the financial debts that I have is a profound change of attitude for me. It brings with it the recognition that I have made descisions that were not really useful for my well being and that I have made a choice to deal with my descision.

Choice: mmmmm….. Always choice…. sometime I choose well, sometimes I choose not so well. Choice: I choose to be grateful for my life.

Yesterday I was walking up the hill to my house pondering how I am touched by the spirit of the land, just asking myself am I touched by it? I sometimes feel as if I am not sure of my relationship with the spiritual side of life. Sometimes for some reason I feel that I am not in touch with my spiritual side at all. This feeling usually goes hand in hand with the fact that my ideas and concepts of spirituality are hard for me to articulate. For some reason I feel that my idea of spirituality is not valid or acceptable to my friends and peers.

Descisions…..simplify….I am doing what I am doing and it is ok for me to be doing what I am doing.

Cultural and Spiritual Well-Being is one of the units I am taking in my Batchelor of Arts degree that I have started this year. The Indigenous College of Southern Cross University in Lismore offers this unit. As an assessment requirement for this unit I have to keep a journal of my feelings and reactions/responses to the experiences of this course.

Wow…..I said “he” in reference to god. mmmmm this hit me the night after our tutorial and made me really recognise my cultural programming and how deep it actually runs through me. Sometimes I feel as if the fact that I was brought up roman catholic is something that I shouldn’t let people know about me. It is interesting the backlash against religion, especially roman catholic, that I find when I mention that I was brought up roman catholic. In both the lecture and the tutorial there were opinions expressed which denigrated religion. I felt in agreement with some of these opinions but something that I seem to be able to realise is that there is a religion and also with that religion there is a church, the institution that dolls out the supposed teaching of the religion. I seem to be able to see the spiritual teaching of a religion as separate to the church.

Ok…. here’s a reaction to the lecture. It’s a body/sense reaction but during the lecture, towards the end, I started to see energy fields (fields as in something that I don’t have a better word for) rising off the top of the speakers and the lecturers’ head. I have seen these things before and I can recognise the feeling inside me when it happens. It is very subtle. I like the feeling. I don’t suppose what this is.

Synchronicity and cross subject similarities are showing themselves to me at present. The definitions of religion and spirituality connected to definitions in another unit that I am studying at the moment. “The map is not the territory” concept as applied to the definition of religion by Martin Buber as “Religion masks the face of God.”.