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Published: Sunday, 9 November 2003

My
life seems to be a study of people at the moment. Not knowing what I
really need to do in this world, so just sitting and watching people.
Lots of people on their path. Many people who cross my path and come in
or just stay on the outside of the doors that I have built for myself.
There is a mist or a swamp in my mind I am trying to wade through.
Access to what I feel is behind is blocked with slowness. This slowness
feels like it is surrounding me and over me it hold my mind from
perceiving some glory that I feel is all pervasive. This slowness is
blotchy I would describe it like smothryquidimpy. It holds my thought
and allows them in only certain directions. I wish to punch through
this slow. Alas I feel I must stop punching. Falling into the same
traps. It is amazing how the ego just wants to follow the same paths
that it has always taken. It is a strange thing. Putting on the
acceptance face is not optional at this time. There is more to me that
I don’t even know. Something must move for this to become clear and
then I may pull the place to me. Clarity replaces slowness. There is a
type of particulate thought form that forces me to my passing time.
Highlights the way I find myself in the world.

Searching for a purpose slows me. If we could share this blotchiness then I could transmute it.

For anyone who is interested

Here is another timewave graph with toady’s date as the target and a span of five years.

greetings my fury friends, it is just a nice Friday night and I have
made a decision and it feels good to do such a thing. So, this has put
me in the mood to tell you all what the bloody hell I have been doing
for the past year and I can start by talking a bit about where the
bloody hell my body is at the moment.

Just a moment the DJ on NIMFM has just changed and now there is
reggae on and I have to put a c.d. on now….. : ) ….. no matter how
long time travels I still seem to not like reggae ….. pretty funny
since I am in the capital of reggae at the moment but that is a story
to come and this reggae is still playing on the radio so hang on.

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arrrrrrhhhh thats better…. cat empire makes me happy! now I can’t
type because my hands and body are just jumping jumping ….

cronicalisation:

living in the Nimbin area (very happy to say that) = living on a
community of conscious people = been on the community for 12 months as
of the 16th of August = its nights like these that you laugh till you
cry = been through a intense relationship breakup in the beginning of
the year = she is the first person who will not talk to me, I don’t get
it but hey, it’s ok, = ha, as well as the most fucked “after
relationship” interaction this year was the second time in my life I
experienced love at first sight! All in the same year, Fuck yea! It is
real and if it doesn’t happen then thats ok as well but I have a
feeling that we will be seeing each other in the futures to come, sweet
silver air, may you fly free on your arrow of love = discovered
that I am an angry type of bloke and I can channel this anger into
positivity through giving to others = I love the place I live and the
people I live with in my mystical valley of water, wine and bread = am
going to buy a share in this community in two weeks, build a house here
and generally love life and the beauty I am surrounded = have fuck all
money which is getting easier to handle = I am resourceful and will
find what I need rather what I want = made a passage through my chapel
perilous and seem to be on the out path, it’s always times when you
think you are through the chapel that some other entity comes to make
sure you didn’t forget the lessons learnt though the path = fear is
sliding away and love is growing as a necessity to my life = still
DJing on NIMFM and loving this as well, fuck I like it hear.

a view from my verandah

So there you go, thats a bit of me and you can contact me at the
inter-dimentional hyperbole transit lounge any time you see my face
with a big smile living in my forest valley with all the real people,
no tv and no rules leaves only love for the conscious one of us. I wish
you all a great wake up, a speedy passage through these “interesting
times” and decide who the “sprouter of lies” is really quickly….please!

ohh sweet nothing, today were doing nothing at all…. la la la o o ar